Tuesday, February 26, 2008

I BELIEVE - IL DIVO

Verse 1
Lonely
The path you have chosen
A restless road
No turning back
One day you
Will find your light again
Don't you know
Don't let go
Be strong
Chorus
Follow your heart
Let your love
lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself,
an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.
Celine Dion
Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert
A L'univers
Poursuis ta quête
Sans regarder derrière
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se leve
Suis ton etoile
Va jusqu'où ton reve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu crois si tu crois si tu crois
En toi
Suis la lumière
N'éteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fonds de toi souviens-toi
Que je crois que je crois que je crois
Que je crois
En toi
All
Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I'll know that is true
Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

me... i... married...

married at last.... but not with the man i love... not even with the man i was hoping for... married for his money.... and nothing more... he.. too did not love me... he too.. did not care.... for all he knows... we can make his mother happy... and that is all... a mother's last wish come true... to see her only son get married....

i feel so hypocrite... i feel so guilty.... every time i see his mother i feel so bad.. i feel like i want to cry and weep and drop down in front of her... i feel like pouring all the lies to her and tell her the truth... she is so nice to me....

yesterday, john didnt come home... he did not even call... well actually i wanted to tell him that i want out... i dont care about the money any more... i dont care.. i cant lie to his mother any more... i cannot deceive his mother anymore...

but he was not at home.... i waited all night but he did not return.... i was disappointed... i felt so jealous... i dont know why i felt so angry... i dont care if he sleeps with her.. i mean i married him not because i love him but because i need his money... and the deal is just a 2 years marriage... thats all ....

i really dont know.... i dont know about myself.... i am so confuse.... i cant even read my feelings for a person... for him... i hate him... at the same time i love him... and also i miss him when he is not at home but i dont care... i dont care if he didnt come home... but i feel jealous... i feel jealous that he sleeps with that woman... i am jealous because he didnt care about me anymore... like he used too....

he used to talk to me... have lunch with me... cook breakfast for me... clean the house together... but now.... i dont know what happen...

I WANT OUT!!!! I DONT CARE..... I CANT LIE TO MYSELF ANYMORE!!!!! WHY???? WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS O ME??? WHY ARE YOU TOYING WITH MY FEELINGS!!!! WHY ARE SO BLUNT TOWARDS MY FEELINGS NOW!!! WHY DID YOU LIE TO ME???