प्लेस ब्रिंग मे अलोंग.....

अकू ताकुत.......

अकू ताकुत काउ हिलंग.....

अकू तिदक माहू इंग्कू तिन्ग्गाल्कन अकू बेर्सेंदिरियन दिसिनी......

तोलोंग लह अज़ाहर......

अकू महेंग्कू मेम्बवा अकू सेकाली......

तोलोंग्लाह.....


प्लेस....


ब्रिंग मे अलोंग.......

ah!!!!!!!!!

aku benci perempuan tu!!!!
dielah peruntuh keluargaku!!!!!
kerana die aku tidak lagi dapat melihat lelaki yang aku sayangi selalu
kerana die aku disini
kerana die orang selalu kate aku gile
kerana die adalah aku!!!!

kerana akulah azahar mati!!!!
kerana akulah semua orang yang menyayanginya tidak dapat melihatnye lagi.... memeluknye.... bergembire.... menangis dibahunye lagi....
kerana akulah mama sakit...
kerana akulah aku merana kini....
kerana kebodohan akulah aku selalu di pergunakan orang lain....

kenapelah aku terlalu lemah???
kenapelah aku tersiksa begini???

aku tak gila!!!! i'm not crazy!!!!

aku tak gila!!!!

i am not crazy!!!!

i swear oh god i saw him!!!!

i saw him with another girl...

then i saw him again.....

i saw him with me....

he was holding me...talking to me..... laughing with me....

how am i seeing him with me but me is not me????

what is it that it is trying to say????

why am i seening things????

why????

azahar do u noe how much i miss you????

azahar do u noe how much i miss u???
do u noe that more than a year i last seen u???
can u hear my prayer every night???
can u see my cry for u every night??
did u ever bother to wipe my tears??

do u remember our best day of our lives???
do u still remeber the color of the ring??
do u still how many diamonds it have??
i have always counted it....
it still mount at sixteen for it symbolise my age when u gave it to me....

why was i so stupid???
why did i have to let go??
why did god have to take u away???
why did chase after me???
why didnt u just let me walk and die just like dat??
why did u have to stop me???
if u jus let me die, u would have been here...healthy....and would have already gotten over me and got a new woman in ur life......

azahar do u noe how much i have been missing u??
do u noe why i miss you??
do noe why i cry for u every night???
do u noe why it is hard for me to let u go???


because....
u sacrifised ur life for me....
u never look down on me...
u never look at me for who i am....
u have always love me for what i am...
u always make me happy....
u always make everyone happy....


for u are u..
a man...
a part of our lives....

hurt by christina aguleira

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you

all alone....

last nigth as i was sitting by the bedroom window i look outside.... all i see was darkness with no glimpse of a star
the road so clear that you can hear the spirits roam the night
the playground so silent that you can hear the cricket play
i look into my soul
all i can see is loneliness and despair
silence and darkness....
i see myself crouching close that i cant even see a slight light reflection of my face.
i tried to hear sound of laughter b ut all i hear is nothing...
i waited longer to hear again...
whining and cries, my soul cries...
not even a laugh or a smile can be seen....
it was then i realise that i was so alone so lonely...

life on bay

i look into amidst of dreams
i see the colour of tranquility
red blue green yellow violet.... and black.....

why???
why is life so dull???
why is life so unfairly boredom for me???

many times i have tried to change...
many times have i tried to please them
but all come a dismay....
wat should i do....
wat should i say????
let god be the one who tells me
when i face him for all my sins
when i have embrace the holy fire that cleans my soul...
when i am brave enough to know....

my life

i hate my life....
i hate being me...
i hate being nurul hidayah binte kamari...
i hate being the daughter of a man whom i love so much but unable to help...
and i hate myslf for only i noe how painfull it is to bo me...

my nephew