Celebrating the New Year with Tears

Window panes come crashing down
Amidst the tears and pain
Vanishing hopes are gone and flew away
Up above through twilight

Shadows cast across the floor
Reflections of the past
Trembling thoughts of one
Dwelling deep within the soul

A mystical sense of reality
Captured by the craze
All in bewilderment
Of the shock in the wave

Creatures of the dimness
Chattering amongst the green
Everything slows in stillness
What is this we see?
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I feel you in the morning
When at first I awake
Your thought is with me
With each decision I make

You'd been around forever
Since the first breath I took
Now I have to go on alone
But for love,
I need not look

Cause by what you bestowed
In our short time together
Will last in my heart
Forever and ever

Although you've left
And now walk above
I'm never alone

I'm wrapped in your love
Enjoy now your long waited reward
Feel peace that your love continues on

What was taught to me,
will be taught to mine
Cause you live on in me
even after you've gone
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You took chances
Once too many times.
As a child you thought
"Oh no, never me."

Life is a gift,
Given and taken at some
Unknown time.

Your time came too soon
Your life was over in a flash.

The fun you shared,
The joy you brought,
All just a memory
Behind us.

Celebrating the New Year with lots of tragedy...

why must life for me so difficult???
why cant i have a simple life like others...

Oh GOd....

Astaghfirullah robbal baroyaa
Astaghfirullah minal khothooya

Ya Illahi Ya Tuhanku
Ampunilah dosa-dosa ku
Aku rindukan kehadiranMu
Sepanjang jalan hayat hidupku
Tiada berharap hanya dariMu

Ya Illahi mohon padaMu
Penuh harapan petunjukMu
Aku tersesat di jalan ini
Tak tau lagi arah kembali
Tuntunlah aku kemana pergi

Ya Illahi Ya Tuhanku
HambaMu ini menujuMu
Jiwa ragaku jadi belenggu
Hanya rahmatMu selamatkanku
Relakan aku dekat padaMu…