You ask what is love?

To some love is hurtful,

to others love is cheerful,

some say love is love,

some think love is like a dove,

is beautiful and caring,

some say love is just daring,

love is also like a book,

you can't judge by it's look.

Love is just there,

I think it shows how you care,

it's not there to stare,

love is incredible although it's no edible,

love is what most want they never know it will haunt,

what happens when it's over,

does your heart split in three like a clover,

next time you ask yourself what is love?

Will you think it 's like a glove ready to pull your heart out,

it will make you pout,

love is something hiding it's waiting to attack,

so you better have a comeback.

What is love?

You tell me......

if the world is mine

if this world were mine

There would be no need for tears

You would never loss a loved one

Pure bliss and happiness through the years

if this`world were mine

Love would overcome all

Someone would be there to pick you up

Before you have the chance to fall

if this world were mine

I would never again feel alone

Instead I would feel the presence of many

Moving to my heart through my soul

well baby I have you

Which means all things will come true

You see this world is mine

Because my world is you

those are the words

I love you.

Those are the words that open my thoughts, my heart, and my soul.

Those are the words that fill my head, this book, and the hole

That continued to grow with every mistake I made, every person that I lost

Left me with a debt that my mind could not pay, so my heart had to pay the cost.

Those are the words that are my gift, my nepenthe, and my pain.

Those are the words that make me happy, make me crazy, and make me sane.

I love you.

Those are the words that open my thoughts to happiness and sorrow.

The joy of being with you today and fear of losing you tomorrow.

Those are the words that open my heart up to you

To show you how I feel about everything you do.

Those are the words that open my soul and everything inside.

All the feelings that I have and all the pain that I hide.

I love you.

Those are the words that is my gift to you from me.

To bring you lots of joy and make you very happy.

Those are the words that are my nepenthe for past memories

They bring my mind to rest and it slowly starts to ease.

Those are the words that are my pain that slowly eats away

At my mind and soul and makes them start to rot and decay.

I love you.

Those are the words that fill my head with happy thoughts of us.

All the romantic memories and times of love struck lust.

Those are the words that fill this book from the start until the end.

It shows in every page, how much I tried to tend.

And those are the words that fill the hole.

I love you.

Those are the words that make me happy deep within my heart.

When you say them to me, my body starts to warm, each and every part.

Those are the words that make me crazy when I know not what to think.

All my thoughts start to spin and my sound mind starts to sink.

Those are the words that make me sane when my thoughts are crystal clear.

Now I know what to say as I whisper in your ear,

I love you.

i still need you........

as i walk in the breeze,
i saw myself
all alone............
i look again...
deep into my heart....
looking for something to hold on.....
i saw your face....
smiling at me

it was then i realise........

i need you.........

i thought i could move on with life.....

i was wrong....

i still need you...

to make me laugh again...

to make me dream again....

to make my life more beautiful...

colourful...

full of rythme....

full of love and happiness....





i need you.......

to cares my hair.....

to cares my lips....

to cares my ears......

with loving words........



but now i know..........

it is too late...

for i am going....

and i know you have gone.......


for a better future...........

going with ease........

Her eyes begin to close
as the tears roll to the floor.
She knows death has pranced into the room for the reason of the kiss.
She hears the moon calling
as the ocean whispers her name.
She lays there,
Her hand slowly begin to grow cold.
She is torn if she should go with them or not into the deep night sky.
She decides to stop fighting them
for she knows
they will not leave without her tonight.
Hearing the calling of her over and over again,
She my now rest her head with ease,
As she dances into the calling of the moon,
And the ocean's soft whispers.

yesterday i reached singapore at about 11pm.
i saw the man waitnig for me......
i know it's dad who told him i'm coming home....
havent they had enough???
cant they understand simple request??????
I DO NOT WANT TO MEET OR TALK TO HIM BEFORE THE DAY WE WILL MEET AND THAT IS ON MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

WHY CANT THEY DO JUST THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!
TODAY, I HAVE TO GO TO A MEETING WITH HIM.....

I HATE YOU DAD!!!!!!!!!!!!




I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I HATE ALL OF YOU...................


ALL YOU THING IS BUSINESS!!!!!!!!!


EVEN IF YOU HAVE TO SACRIFICE YOUR OWN DAUGHTER IT DOESNT MATTER RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!


I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




I HATE ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




I HATE YOU MOM!!!!!!!!!!!!


I HATE ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one more month............ i'm yours no more.........

one more month.........
that's the only time i have........
to whisper love to ur ears.......
to lick dos sweets on u......
to tug u in my dream.....
to hold u tight in my breath....

one more month....
that's the only time we have......
to care each other.....
to say love.....
to make dreams.....
to hold each other high.....

one more month.....
my life will have a new beginning....
a beginning that erase everything....
everything i owned....
all the things that i possessed....

one more month......
i will be not me.......
but a woman who have to look out for her man.........
a man that was chosen by her parents...
parents that don understand her....
her cries.......
her stress.......
her happiness....
her needs....
her pain......
her life....

one more month...
thats all the time i have left.....

why cant they let me die

Why does it have to be me

To go though this

Why does it have to be me

Who can never show it

I'm crying cant you see

Don't you care about me?

I lock myself in the bathroom

I won't let anybody in

Then I see it

Perfectly sharpend in all its glory

To help me,

Release me

Let me be free

I take it in my hand

Gripping it tightley

Pointing it carfully at my wrist

Im going to do this

I close my eyes

Count to 5

A sudden pain

Releases,

I feel it trickling

I look at it

It's not to deep,

but deep enough

To feel

To know

I'm real

I'm released

And I'm not hurt

Not in the least bit

Then I sit

Once again

Looking,

Thinking

About what I have just done

Just accomplished

A small frown appears on my face

Not enough

A tear takes place

Makes its jouney to my wrist

Stings,

Burns

The pain

Too slow

I get up and look at my ugly face in the mirrior

And Scream

HOW COULD ANYONE EVEN WANT ME!!!!!

I'm ending this mistake

This mistake thats me,

my life

I'm fed up with life

I hold the knife to my throat

I thought it's a few seconds of pain

or the rest of my life

I make one final slice

My last words are

Good-bye thanks for all the pain and misery!

But it didn't end

i open my eyes to see myself in bed

was i dreaming?

i looked at my wrist,

bandaged.

i felt my throat

bandaged.

i look around me

all i saw is me and an empty furnished room

i stepped out of bed and towards the door

i turned the knod

as i pull the door open

i tried to hear for voices

voices of people i know

silence

thats all i hear

not even the sound of cricket

i sat at my bed

for hours

waiting

for a soul to come in

it was then i came in believe that

i am all alone

because

they dont give a damn about me

but what i dont understand

why cant they let me die??

The moonless night cupped me in its hands
Without a star and only the light post to keep me company
My thoughts are with you.
With silence around me and only my footsteps for company
My thoughts are with you.
As the cool winter breeze caresses my face
My thoughts are with you.
As tears well up in my eyes my thoughts are with you.
why did you leave me?
Your body stayed but your soul went to heaven.
With love in my heart I think of you.

one more month

my dad and his dad has fixed the date . on the 11th august 2007....... the day i will die........