aku takutkan die

aku takutkan die.... semase aku balik semalam, aku terjumpe die kat bawah blok.... aku pun jalan cepat2 tapi die kejar aku .... die pegang tangan aku dan die kate die nak bebual ngan aku psal zul ngan azhar.... jadi aku duduk ngan die ah kat bawah blok...





die tanye aku kalau aku masih cintekan azahar... aku cakap lah aku masih dan akan terus cintekan azahar.... abis tu die tanye aku kalau aku suke kan zul tak...aku cakap aku sayang zul seperti mane azahar sayangkan zul.... aku tak boleh buang zul ketipi... die kan abang azahar...



lepastu die tanye aku kalau aku sayangkan azahar ngan zul sebab harte diorang atau cinte dan kasih sayang... aku geram, aku tampar die lepas tu aku naik atas.... bile aku on hp, die msg aku.... die kate die cinte aku die sayang aku tapi aku tahu itu semua bohong sebab dulu die pernah kate die tak akan cinte dan suke kan aku sebab gemuklah busuklah... hodohlah... miskin ah.... tak setaraf dengan die....





aku takut... aku takut die datang lagi.... aku tak nak hati ini terluke lagi.... aku da tak nak involve dalam relationship yang tak akan membawa manfaat kepade diri aku sendiri....





dan aku masih sayangkan azahar.... cinte aku pada azahar masih lagi berbunge walaupun die dah meningal lebih dari setahun.... aku masih sayangkan zul walaupun die bukan abang aku... zul pernah ade disisi aku ketike aku perlukan seseorang untuk membahu tangisan aku... die ade bile aku perlukan teman untuk mendorong aku keluar dari lingkuan pedih pilu.....



walaupun diorang due da tak ade lagi... aku tetap kenangkan diorang sebab mereke mengajar aku cinte dan kasih sayang yang harus aku berikan kepade orang lain... terutame cinte kepade keluargeku...


selame ini aku tak pernah kenal kasih sayang satu keluarga sehinggalah aku kenali mereka.... mama dan papa mereke juga menyanyangiku... malah aku rase mereke menyayangi ku melebehi dari kasih sayang yang diberi mama dan papa aku sendiri....

tak mungkin aku lupekan diorang sekeluarge....

i love you

When April bends above me
And finds me fast asleep,
Dust need not keep the secret
A live heart died to keep.
When April tells the thrushes,
The meadow-larks will know,
And pipe the three words lightly
To all the winds that blow.
Above his roof the swallows,
In notes like far-blown rain,
Will tell the little sparrow
Beside his window-pane.
O sparrow, little sparrow,
When I am fast asleep,
Then tell my love the secret
That I have died to keep.

broken hearts

When I started as a teen
I didn't think life could be greater.
Soon everything fell apart
and you pieced together my broken heart.
I opened up and let you in,
I never thought you'd hurt me in the end.

I never understood what went wrong.
I didn't think it would hurt this long.
All the things you said to me,
I always thought we would be.
The past we cannot forget
But our hearts might be filled with great regret.
I've survived heartbreak and I'll do it again.
I cannot dwell on one of you men.

Love comes your way each and everyday,
It isn't obvious but is shown in a different way.
Some people feel it and others don't,
There are some people who just won't.

Loving is living,
You have to be giving.
Hiding away won't solve the problem today.
Embrace each chance to give your heart away.

Love hurts but take chances,
You will find different romances.
I will open my heart once more
But my heart will always be sore.

waiting

I sit alone in the darkness।

Waiting।Waiting for him to come back to me।

Can he hear my cries?Can he feel my tears?

Can he sense my breaking heart?

God only knows such a fact।

How can this be that he can't see me?

Is it because I'm sitting alone in the darkness?

I just walk past everyone as if I were invisible।

Can he see me now?

Can he see the pain he's caused me?

Or does he just look past it?

I think I should move on, but something tells me to wait।

It's my heart।

I'll give him one last chance।

He needs to prove his love to me।

As I return to sit alone in the darkness।

Waiting।

dear mom

Dear Mom,You said you'd always be thereBut you're nowhere to be foundI can't believe you left meI feel so low beneath the groundThere's nothing I can do nowI trusted you with all my heartBut now you're goneYou're the one who tore my life apartI've learned not to trustThere's nothing more to sayYou've lost someone specialYou can't get back each dayNow you're the one left in the darkAnd all of a sudden you feel my painYou expect me to take you backBut you still feel you're not to blameI could never forgive youEven if I triedYou can never make upFor the lonely nights I've criedYou will never know the feelingOf losing the person you need the mostTo laugh and cry and love youInstead of making you feel like a ghostI've moved on with my lifeWithout you by my sideMy pain has kept so longI'm telling you how I feel insideIn a way I want to thank youBecause of you I'm strongI just wanted you to knowI didn't turn out wrong